take the good with the bad

Posted by Mommy:

CJ had his monthly chemo on the 22nd of June. It started out very good. He was in a good mood, had no issues with the doctor, or the finger poke. He was just talking and playing the entire time. His ANC was 1900, which you can’t get better than that. It is not too high that the chemo is not working, and it is not too low where he is at risk of an infection. I was very happy with this since the week before we had to go to our family doctor because CJ’s allergies have been acting up. His eyes were getting yucky and needed some drops to clear them up. Like I said everything was going good. That is until we get to the chemo room. As soon as we walked into the chemo room, which is a big room with several big reclining chairs, toys, TV’s, and lots of fun looking things, CJ decided he wanted to go home. To bad we hadn’t got the chemo done yet. After three times cleaning his port area, and two nurses and myself making him hold still we finished chemo. The normally easy thing that doesn’t take 5 minutes took 20 minutes. We left with both me and CJ upset. All he would tell me is he didn’t want to get chemo today. I tried to explain that sometimes we have to do things we don’t want to do, I know I didn’t want to help two nurses hold my son down to put these chemicals into his body that I know makes him feel bad for the next couple of days, but we have to. By the time we got home he was over it, and playing just as nothing happened. I know it can be a good thing that CJ is very strong willed and stands up for what he wants, but some days I wish he would just go with the flow, it would be so much less stressful on both of us.